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So upset and sad

Haven't been able to post

dad was paralyzed had surgery doing better

mother in law alzehemizers 

i found out my dog Bailey has lymphoma she's four. Crying for days   

conrectal  dr calls says anal pap atypical as always but with dysphasia.   Says needs high resolution biopsy. Omg I'm freaking. 

Mri also on Friday cause node on spleen grew 

I'm a wreck flipping out to much to handle. June will be five years when I found out about anal cancer.  Scared 

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Cindy - I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!!
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Cindy, WOW, cannot imagine!! What happened to your dad???

I would be freaking too. Can only say, with Nancy, that you will be surrounded by loving thoughts from us as you go into these new exams. Please come back and tell us the news...
I'm so sorry Cindy. Good thing you go for your tests. They can zap that right out. Keep us posted. I will say a prayer that things get better. (can they give your dog chemo? My cat had chemo for breast cancer and she's doing ok)
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Can you or anyone say anything about anal paps. Mine only came back once normal the rest were atypical but this says mild dysphasia. That means precancerous cells. Also I'm thinking that's the reason the node on spleen grew!
Oh no. Hang in there. Sounds like you are getting hit all at once. Big hug to you sweetie. One day at a time.
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When it rains it pours! I am sorry you are dealing with all of this. Dealing with family illness and your own health issues has to be overwhelming. Please know that I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
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I'm so sorry, Cindy! So hard to deal with your own health issues, without having to worry about your family also, and now your poor dog too. I think Kathee's experience should be encouraging for you-hopefully they can get rid of the dysplasia cells and you will be fine. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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Cindy, wow you are going through so much. You will be in my prayers.
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I'm close five years too. This stuff never stops. It can show it's face at any time. I hope you get through all that's on your plate right now. Praying and thinking of you.
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My thoughts are with've got far too much on your plate. I'm very sorry to hear about all of your loved ones including your sweet dog, Bailey. I pray your MRI and biopsy go well.
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So sorry yo hear of your worries, there is an awful lot going on and not enough time to digest the information properly and cope with it. Hoping the mri and biopsy go well, and am sure you'll keep us posted. Fingers crossed
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*soft paw* You've been through so much and now have all this to cope with .. we send you strength and healing vibes, lots of white light coming your way. From reading comments here, it sounds like the anal pap results might not be anything sinister but completely understand your stress. Soonest analysed the better. We hope your Dad has a complete recover and is back on his feet, and we are sad to hear about your MIL and hope the disease can be controlled with progress very very slow. Very sad news about Bailey, damn lymphoma. Paws and fingers crossed it's off a type that can also be controlled. Four years is just not long enough on this earth. Hugs and more hugs :*)
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I'm hoping the node that started growing on spleen has nothing to do with this. I told them book it ASAP!!the MRI thank God is Friday. My Bailey is my world. We got her to get me out the the awful funk I was in after my second cancer. With mike away at grad school dave always working she got me to move cause she needed me to take care of her. I did. We ate together 24/7. How can she be taken away from me. She's so good ! I talk to her we are glued at the hip. Why?? Two cancers now my dog has it. So so sick over this 😪😪💔💔
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It's just not fair. You are both in our thoughts and purrayers, wishing for luck and miracles, strength and courage, and lots of time yet for more memories with Bailey. Lymphoma sucks, but we have heard encouraging stories of dogs who have had the disease living almost normal lives for a number of years. Paws and fingers crossed for you both *hugs* :*)
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I am so sorry Cindy that you and your family are so overwhelmed with medical issues right now. I will keep you all in my prayers...including Bailey. Many hugs!
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I'm so sorry you are going through all this. We're here to listen and support you.
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We are not in control of "The Big Picture." Therefore, you have to "do your day", as a friend said, about her situation (uncooperative uterus and having severe pain). Do what you need to to keep going. On the flip side, you need, also, REST.
I will say special prayer for stability in your body and peace in your mind. BIG hug!!!!
Cindy, I just would like to say that I am not being "flip." Many of us have been bombarded, unrelentingly, it ,often , seems... Find strength here. And, above. 🌅
It always seems trouble never comes alone. I had a anal pap for the first time. I am 2 years out. It came back normal, but the gyn that did it said it is common for them to come back showing dysplasia after treatment.

Anal cancer does not "usually" go to your spleen so I am thinking it is something else. I had a growth on my adrenal gland which is being monitored. I was told that the majority of times they are benign growths. I will be praying it is benign.

My "fur" babies cheer me up when I am down and keep me company, so I know you are worried about your baby, too. I am in hopes that you are able to find a vet that will take care of your baby.
I am sure the stress of ailing parents adds to your stress level. Perhaps you have a sibling or inlaw that can help carry some of your burdens.
Praying that by next week all will be going in a positive direction for you! Big Hugs!!
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Hi Cindy, when it rains it pours. You've been handed a sh*t sandwich for sure. Take one thing at a time. Slow down. Take time daily for a little R&R without your mind racing. First- you; I would go by what Kathee has mentioned about radiation damage and not worry about it- and spleen, yes we can all get cysts- not a great thing, but not likely cancerous. The scan should help them analyze your situation. 2nd: yes, the mind has a unique built-in clock- I am regularly thinking about 5 years ago when I and the doctors had no freakin' clue what I had going on with my health. All I knew what that I couldn't bear the agonizing pain of just walking 6 feet and they shoved muscles around until they finally got an MRI, another MRI, two biopsies, and the day surgery was scheduled they said: Oh, it's NHL cancer. Six weeks of no clue was horrible. But, you, I, and many other BFAC'ers have made it thru, and while 'damaged', we are stronger now- we have more resources now. Aside from your health, you have items that you have no control over, and a higher power is what you have to work with to guide you and health care professionals to do the best with what you have in the way of your dear Dad's health crisis, your Mom-in-Law, and your animal friend. Your dog is very young to have disease, but knowing what chemo is to us, I don't know if I could justify doing that to my dog too? In closing, you are not alone in this situation, get your scan, and just find a way to stop- look at a flower, a bird, a baby, a sunrise/set, and go to your 'happy thoughts' to slow the pace of the day. MGBY,
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Thanks John. Yes we all have our issues each day after our cancers. I just needed to vent. It's been non stop. Everyone here has issues so I shouldn't complain. I was reminded of that As far as the dog I chose chemo because the vet said they don't get the side effects people feel with chemo. And she could live another year or so. I would never let her suffer. The day we found out she was as perky as ever. If she doesn't do well with treatment or doesn't go into remission I won't let her suffer. She is everything to me. Literally together 24/7. But right now I will try to giver her some good quality life and when she's not well I will let her go
Wow...just wow. Even one of these things would be upsetting. I am so sorry you are going through all of this. Stay strong, I will keep you in my prayers.
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Cindy, get a pharmaceutical, preferably Valium. The best way to deal with jitters is to mask them until your tests are over. I believe we all carry dysphasia cella at our radiation site. Dysplasic means abnormal cells. Well, the skin in my mouth, particularly the left side, will never be as before radiation. So it could be that, not cancer, just "different". As for Bailey, I'm so sorry. But ca tx has come a long way for canines too! I know of several treated successfully. Get that Valium, ok? Many blessings to you. And don't worry, things always turn out. God bless.
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Dear Cindy,
I am hoping you are ok, and can take a breather between all the other challenges, with your dads health as well as the rest of the family.
I agree with Kathee below. Dysplasia, is just a change in the skin, and we all have it to varying degrees after radiation.
Please do keep us posted.
Hugs, Jean
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Cindy, Kathee sounds like she is the perfect source to help allay your anxiety about the HRA. She has so much experience. As for your dad, I'm shocked, but your words that he's doing better are encouraging, I'm really saddened to hear about Bailey's lymphoma. My dog Rocky got lymphoma the same year I went through treatment. He had issues with his spleen and other complications that were terminal. Dealing with that was as painful as dealing with my own cancer. I wil never forget that precious fur baby. I Kronos and feel your attachment to Bailey. Since Rocky died I have read a lot about comparative oncology and treatment for dog cancer. I highly recommend the book Heal by Arlene Weintraub. It is an inspiring book about how humans and canine cancers are more similar than humans' cancers and cancer in mice, chimps and other lab victims. In turn lessons learned from one can help the other in treatment options. (Dog sarcoma treatments led to breakthroughs in treating human sarcomas.) But, I mention the book to you because at the of the book there are many resources you can check out. The website mentions a vey promising new drug for canine lymphoma. I think financial assistance may be available, too. Some of the vet schools involved in comparative oncology sometimes take dogs for clinical trials at no charge. Bailey may be a survivor just like you. Best wishes for you and Bailey in this new journey for another cure!
By the way, Tanovea-CA1, the new canine lymphoma drug, is not chemo.
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Vital Info


August 8, 2012

Rhode Island

November 8, 1961

Cancer Fighter

Cancer Info

Anal Cancer

Anal cancer squamous cell

June 23, 2012

Stage 3B

0.1 - 1.0 cm

Grade 3


Fluorouracil (5-FU)

Everything....and having it again..had hodgkins lymphoma 1989

You have to enjoy life

Two groin nodes and two iliac nodes

Rhode Island Hospital

October 11, 2013

Anal skin tag...burning..itching...cramps....constipation ....tired

Starting Aug 27th 5FU and Mito C

Pelvic radiation starting aug 27th



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